My eyes are glued on my Samsung Galaxy S5. I am still waiting and hoping that I got a message, or a call from him. Until this hour, there is none. I am bored to death of waiting.

That was me a few weeks ago. I have come to my senses. Enough is enough. I have more important things in life than to wait for a call or message from someone who does not even care or think about me.

You are my world

Darling,

If you look into my eyes, you will see what you really mean to me. If you search deep into your heart, and you search within your soul, you will find me there. Once you had found me stuck in your heart forever, you will never search no more.

Darling,

Please, don’t tell me it’s not worth trying for. Please don’t tell me that it is not worth dying for. You know that it is true. You know that I do everything for you.

Darling,

Look into your heart and you will find that there is nothing to hide. Please take me for what I am. Take my life completely as I would give it all to you, and I would sacrificed everything for you.

Darling,

Please don’t tell me that it is not worth fighting for. I cannot help it as there is nothing I want more. You already knew that everything I do, I do it for you. 

Should I or Shouldn't I?

I don't know what to do exactly.

I wanted him to know that I love him so much. I wanted him to know that I do not want him to be in any relation or connection with that BITCH. OMG! Sorry, mind my words.

Should I block him from everything that can connect him with me?

I don't want to be that evil...

But I have tried everything (except for shamans) to convey my message to him... how that fucking bastard is not welcome at all in my life, our life, for what she had done to me....

Gosh.........................................................

Some of the things about me

Assalamualaikum to my Muslim readers, and a warm Hello to all non-Muslim readers. Welcome to my humble blog.

How to start? OK. Let me describe myself through my name. My name is Niyaz Ardini. I love my name so much, because of it's meaning. It really defines my feelings. 

Let's cut the chase...

Niyaz means Dua' or DOA or hope. To all who have faith in God, they know about prayers. Yes, Niyaz means prayers. 

I am not an expert in the depth meaning of DOA, but here is a link that you can have a better understanding what it means according to the Holy Quran and Sunnah.

"http://asdarulsunnah.blogspot.com/2008/07/definisi-doa-menurut-al-quran-dan.html"

DOA is a prayer from a human to its Creator. That is why, when we feel like we are alone, actually we are not alone. Our Creator is always there for us. In pain, in sorrow, in happiness. Our Creator is always with us. In every breath that we take. In every second of our life. Be thankful for He has created us.

Do you know what is the meaning of my second name? Ardini?

In Arabic, the meaning of Ardini is 'the loving wife'. I am a woman who really loves my Imam. He is my everything. Everything I did in life is about him, and for him.

There you go, I am Niyaz Ardini. I am a woman who is deeply in love to my Imam and I always pray for his success in life and also in the hereafter.

I have an account on Facebook, and I have my own Fanpage on Facebook. My Facebook is https://www.facebook.com/niyaz.ardini.5 and my Fanpage is https://www.facebook.com/niyaz.ardini